One time, I did a forty-one day process one thing. That process is, everyday I should be in the water. I have a beautiful farmhouse, sixty acres, mango garden, beautiful well. On the Full Moon Day, the climax day what I'm suppose to receive, a divine spirit is suppose to come and have a conversation with me. That's the final climax. No matter what, wherever I am in the globe, specifically that evening by twelve to two a.m. I should be in the water. If I lost that process, I have no permission again to get the process back. Once it's done, it's done. It's like a rose flower, once if you cut off there's no way to fix it.
I'm in Hyderbad on that day. Morning 6:30 I left. It's 400 kilometers to Penukonda. I'm a rush driver. I know by late night I'll reach, it's like six, seven hours journey. No problem. I left at 6:30, 7 a.m. I'm driving. My driver is next to me and two devotees is in the back. Unfortunately, by mistake, I hit a small auto; slightly hit it. That auto guy is little crazy. He's crazy, then he created big crazy scene. Wasted about four, five hours times. Ok, just I'll solve the problem. Ok, paid the money, “Ok, thank you no problem.” That's my mistake, the illusion hit.
Then almost like one hundred kilometers to Penukonda, it's almost sunset, guess how many tires got the flat at a time? Three tires got flat. A big lorry is coming. I went too much to the left into the open ground - all crazy nails there. Got stopped. My driver opened the stuff and then he went to the village to fix it. He took two, three hours; he got back. My heart started beating more. I could take a lorry or something and just go. But again I have to go to my farmhouse - it takes time. It really takes time.
Finally I made my farmhouse two, three minutes late. I jumped in my well. I jumped in my well. Started my process chanting my mantra. At certain exact timing, something started appearing in front of me. I'm having a conversation. The water level, where I sat that rock, it's an old well. That rock started to sink. Where I sat, that rock started to sink. It's going down. It's pure illusion, pure lila; it's a lila. I got what I wanted, then the rock fell off. Then I swam in the well, then I started coming back. Two, three steps I climbed pretty good very fastly. After three or more going on, I slipped very terrible, bad injury. You should not get that type of pain experience. I had one part the Divine experience is there. After I even got it, then it's completely numb. I'm ready to fall off in the well. Ok… just holding all my inspiration, “Ok, ok, I'm here to do, I didn't lose it. I'm here to do.”
Why I'm saying this, even though any process, anything, the lilas, the illusions will play. It'll play. Accept it. Do as much as you can, push it. You did a mistake, ok. If any mistake happens ok, you no need to worry. But from your heart you need to do your maximum best. You know what I'm saying? From your heart you have to do your maximum best. Then you'll win it.
I'm in Hyderbad on that day. Morning 6:30 I left. It's 400 kilometers to Penukonda. I'm a rush driver. I know by late night I'll reach, it's like six, seven hours journey. No problem. I left at 6:30, 7 a.m. I'm driving. My driver is next to me and two devotees is in the back. Unfortunately, by mistake, I hit a small auto; slightly hit it. That auto guy is little crazy. He's crazy, then he created big crazy scene. Wasted about four, five hours times. Ok, just I'll solve the problem. Ok, paid the money, “Ok, thank you no problem.” That's my mistake, the illusion hit.
Then almost like one hundred kilometers to Penukonda, it's almost sunset, guess how many tires got the flat at a time? Three tires got flat. A big lorry is coming. I went too much to the left into the open ground - all crazy nails there. Got stopped. My driver opened the stuff and then he went to the village to fix it. He took two, three hours; he got back. My heart started beating more. I could take a lorry or something and just go. But again I have to go to my farmhouse - it takes time. It really takes time.
Finally I made my farmhouse two, three minutes late. I jumped in my well. I jumped in my well. Started my process chanting my mantra. At certain exact timing, something started appearing in front of me. I'm having a conversation. The water level, where I sat that rock, it's an old well. That rock started to sink. Where I sat, that rock started to sink. It's going down. It's pure illusion, pure lila; it's a lila. I got what I wanted, then the rock fell off. Then I swam in the well, then I started coming back. Two, three steps I climbed pretty good very fastly. After three or more going on, I slipped very terrible, bad injury. You should not get that type of pain experience. I had one part the Divine experience is there. After I even got it, then it's completely numb. I'm ready to fall off in the well. Ok… just holding all my inspiration, “Ok, ok, I'm here to do, I didn't lose it. I'm here to do.”
Why I'm saying this, even though any process, anything, the lilas, the illusions will play. It'll play. Accept it. Do as much as you can, push it. You did a mistake, ok. If any mistake happens ok, you no need to worry. But from your heart you need to do your maximum best. You know what I'm saying? From your heart you have to do your maximum best. Then you'll win it.